Hi guys, well this is my essay (it's still a work in progress) and its something that was very personal to me and I hope you guys enjoy it. Let me know what you think be cause I am debating on whether I should or shouldn't read it out loud.
This I believe... I believe that falling in love with your best friend is probably the worst thing you could ever do. The thing is, I don't even know how it happened. One day I had my best friend, the person I told everything to. We would spend every minute of everyday with each other- he telling me his family troubles and I, listening with open ears, trying to be supportive and giving him advice on how to cope. We would fool around whenever we played tennis- he'd smack the ball hard so it would go out flying out of the court and I would be laughing hysterically- we would eat food at each others houses, be with each others families' and just enjoy the time we had together. But then it happened, I fell for him, I began to see what a great guy he was and I noticed what a great smile he has (it’s adorable!). I began to see him in a new way which frightened me. I knew that liking him this way would be the most terrible thing to happen to our friendship but the little voice inside of me kept telling me to go for it, he might like you too. In the end the little voice won, I gave in and with every ounce of courage I had in my body I asked him if he liked me and it was then and there where, for the first time, I had my heart broken; he said he just thought of me as a friend and that he didn't see me in that way. I was so crushed; I felt as if I was hit by a truck and left as scum on the floor and as if I had cried enough tears to make my own river. Even though this happened about 5 months ago, I still can't get over him and I honestly can't explain why. I think it’s because he has become such a big part of my life that I just can't get him off my mind, but trust me.... I am getting better. I'm sad because after all this happened, we no longer hang out as much as we used to and whenever we do see each other it is awkward but I guess that's the consequence that came with asking him. And this is going to sound pathetic, but I wonder if in 10 years, when he and I part our ways, if he sees me through a foggy window outside of a Starbuck (that's his favorite place) will he realize that I could have been "the one"? Could I have been one of the best things to happen to him? Who knows, maybe things played out this way for a reason- that's the big fat lie I keep telling myself everyday to feel better. I think part of me will always have some feelings for him, but this I believe... falling for your best friend is the worst thing that could ever happen.
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I think this is wonderful so far :) you should definitely read it out loud because this is about something that pretty much happens everyday. It's a very relatable subject and it can happen to anyone anytime. It even happened to me a long time ago. p.s. I'm really sorry you had to go through that, because it sucks big time.
ReplyDeletep.s. i hope in the end you find your prince charming; someone who treats you right and makes you smile :)
ReplyDeleteI have to applaud you for writing this. It must have taken courage to share this story. I think asking him was better than not. Finding out too late that he felt the same way about you doesn't feel very good either. I guess it's a matter of whether knowing there was no chance is more painful than knowing there was a chance and you blew it.
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