Drive

Since the start of this unit, I have been thinking, "What drives me?" I wake up in the morning and I go to school but only because it is required for me to not necessarily because I want to. When Ms. Fletcher said to us yesterday to get out our notebooks and write about what made our life worthwhile, what made it exciting, what made it ours, I had no answer. I just do not know what makes it mine besides the fact that I am the one living it. It may sound as if I am unhappy but I'm not; I am perfectly happy in my life. I have a family that I disagree sometimes but who love me very much, I have friends who are there when I need them, clothes, food; what makes my life?

I try to think but in all honesty I don't know what I want in life. That basically translates to "I have no goals." I know I want to go to college and I know it is perfectly okay to not know what you want to do after, but the thought of the unknown is scary. The whole world frightens me; I have been sheltered from experiencing things. I do not know how to drive, I have never had a job, I am not usually with my friends on the weekends. I love my mother, but I feel she has not properly prepared me for what lies ahead, though she has tried. I know that knowledge of the world comes from experience but if I ask her something she says "Bike there, you can do it." I am shoved out with no guidelines; lost, always lost. I do not know how to plan, or do anything that matters out in the real world for that matter.

So kids, have some sort of guide so it's not so scary and figure out, "What drives you?"